Awaken

At the ripe age of 25, I sit here & recall the past 5 years and I’m no where near where I wanted to be at this point of my life. Don’t get me wrong, I’m content right now, but I want more. I thought I had life figured out, what I wanted & how I was going to obtain it. I lost touch with aspects of me that I wish I would have kept on working on. I’ll be honest & say I was angry, bitter, and holding tight onto grudges and negativity. My life was chaos, I felt like I had no control of anything. I know certain situation and events are beyond my control or anyone’s for that matter, but as far as the things I could, were no longer of importance. They were, but in my eyes it was better not to care. The only person I was hurting was me. Sitting and waiting for someone to come and put all the pieces together again was and is a waste of time & this precious gift we call life. The only one who can is me. I can’t & don’t blame no one but myself for the way my life played out. I regret the bridges I burned trying to help the wrong ones build an escape. I regret lost time I could have spent with the ppl who I care for & care for me. I regret letting others get the best of me, making me believe I’m not good enough or that I'm beyond fixing. What I regret most is that I didn’t believe in MYSELF! Letting my thoughts flow freely now has opened my eyes to the fact that those ppl, including me, were just threatened by the massive potential I possess. It feels good to wake from such a long slumber.