Some things eye'll never understand...

My womb, my womanhood is on the brink of distruction. Eye never used it as a dump site, yet it is destroying me, my light! Quickly dimming me & my spirit so eye shine less bright! What eye wouldn’t give to get it back right & experience what every Queen was brought here to do & bring forth life. Eye know everything happens for a reason, eye shouldn’t question this path! Eye have done majority of all things in my life right, even though it’s always been a fight. My intentions & actions are souly out of love wether others see it as so. Eye do it for me, not the approval of others or my ego!
Then you have these girls, these MONSTERS who use & abuse their wombs like a drive-thru at a fast food joint! Murdering baby after baby after baby, yet still continuing to mistreat their temple, their gift, their purpose! Here eye am puzzled, broken, confused, in pain *mental & physical*, angry, lost… not comprehending their way of thinking, their rationalization on how it’s ok to do so?! Eye understand why, but eye don’t innerstand… LOVE is to be shared & given.. not destroyed based on shallow, blinded sheeples way of thinking!
From personal experiences of the sheeple eye know, wether it be ‘family’ or ASSociates, eye know for a fact of over 50 lil babies who were never given a chance or a choice. Sometimes eye think it’s best they didn’t have to waste time on this miserable earth with these ugly monsers they would have called mom. Sad enough, they ALL already have that title & can’t even manage nor handle it! They know NOT of LOVE.. its all for the $, the title… the kids are more like trophies & then they wonder why these ‘old souls’ are constantly putting these monsters, eye mean mothers in their place!
Maybe eye am wrong for thinking like this or even questioning The Universe, but it hurts, it really truthfully hurts! UGH.. :’(